Seriously though..
Nothing in my life is going right anymore. I worked all those hours to have 0 dollars. My dad hates me. I have no friends, no girlfriend, my dad just told me how I’m worthless. Maybe I should take the mustang for a long ass drive. Wherever I end up, I stay.
I fucking hate myself for what I’ve done to you now..
Sometimes I’ve stopped and thought, I wish it would all end, I wish everything would just go away. Without you, there was already so much sorrow in my life, and there was already so much pain, you took all of that away, and now the empty feeling in my stomach and in my chest just adds to what was there before, and everything is so much worse.
If it all ended tonight, I can’t say I’d be sorry about it, and I can’t say that I would want anything else, because honestly, that feeling I had nine months ago before meeting you is back, and so is that Jacob. I’m going back to being unhappy all of the time, even though it seems like I have no reason to be to most.
If it all ended, that would be okay.
I need to visit my mom, I need someone to talk to.
My dad’s too judgmental, and so is everyone else.
